i hate being an adult. making phone calls to people who never have answers for me. who keep me on hold with music that makes me want to nap.
i hate all this stupid beurocratic paperwork. visa. health insurance. insurance bills. doctors appointments. ughhhh! i hate being a woman right now too.
and then i get angry when i call the fax number and i get that screeching sound.
being an adult is not fun right now. too many bills. too many idiots on telephones. fuck responsibilities!
ok ok i got one thing done, sorta…
36 days until the beach and no responsibilities!!!
10 years ago today my favorite person in the world, my grandma, died. and because i couldnt then and cant now be in bosnia, the only way i can remember her is with some of my favorite memories.
- the time i ran away from kindergarten and to her apartment and she didnt let my parents punish me for it
- the way she always let me dress up in even her fanciest italian clothing
- she made the BEST uštipke
- her beautifully curled short red hair
- she was the first person to teach me to count in english and german when i was 4 or 5
i miss you baka kata
- drunk danish guy telling me how much he loves the jersey shore and vinny…ok?
- drunk german guy explaining his t-shirt to me in english (it said FUCKED UP on it), he was wrong
- same drunk german guy telling me that a t-shirt with “dont mess with the hoff” is provocative….umm right
- a cute dog in the park almost ate my lunch
- a guy named lee following me around the park and then asking me for cocktails
- a coworkers soothing voice
- got a little color
- finally put on the right music to cheer me up
- going to bremen (never been there!) for a concert tomorrow
- hearing people talk passionately about work or something they know and love
i am in a horrendous mood today and im pretty sure the next bad thing will set me off into a crying tizzy.
i hate that i have to wait 3 weeks for important test results because of german holidays. i hate plans constantly changing. i hate my period. i hate that its so beautiful out and i cant enjoy it since i have no balcony now. fuck it.
i desperately need 5 positive things today.
